Here is another written long ago...

ROLES

In this world of friends and lovers
fate has given me my part,
to many hands in friendship
but never to win a heart.

Brother, pal, friend, pare.
These titles I'll proudly keep,
behind a tree, as lovers stroll by
alone, I shall weep.

But as each new adventure unfolds
I try to break from the past.
To shake the role of the longtime friend
and to be the lover at last!

These delusions, these fantasies, will never be
I know well the reasons why,
This movie, this show will last my lifetime
My part is mine 'til I die.

These words etched in my mind
as if cast upon stone.
It shall be my epitaph
that I "Died alone".


Obviously, I was not exactly cheery when I wrote this. Anyone can only guess what happened to put in such a state of mind. Every now and again the thought creeps in and I know that I have to fight it. I have to, the alternative is to give up.

[kahit na ano]