Friday, April 30, 2004

Off to Vegas

Going to Las Vegas for Steve's bachelor party... woohoo!

Song of the Day: "Viva Las Veges" by Elvis Presley

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Classrooms Run Like Gameshows?

According to this article, classrooms are going to be taught by teachers going through the Alex Trebeck School of Education.

Song of the Day: "Dumb" by Nirvana

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Even In A Wedding Dress, He's Got BALLS!

Came across this the other day. I was literally on the floor. A person, who wants their identity kept a secret (Alicia), actually found it and told me to check it out. I'm glad that this person (Alicia) showed me, it is hilarious.
I am still chuckling over it. I am sorry for what this person had to go through but I gotta applaud his sense of humor and the fact that he still has one.

Song of the Day: "Where Have All The Good Times Gone?" by Elton John

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Where Have you Been?

The week before Easter the college was closed for spring break, the week after that I was up at Tahoe, last week she did not come by so I did not see her...
Yesterday, I got a message that she stopped by after I had left. Today she came by and hung out for an hour. She told me she missed me. We got caught up and we MADE plans to go out. I was surprised how easy it was. I thought it was going to be painful just trying to get the words out, but... FOOOOSH! Out it came just like that. She asked me if I still go to Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf (that's actually where we met). I told her about Guppy's and she said she would like to check it out sometime... so that's where I'll be taking her.
Yet another reason to "plug" Guppy's to everyone.

Song of the Day: "So Into You" by Atlanta Rhythym Section

Monday, April 26, 2004

Another Week?

I woke up this morning thinking to myself, "Is it Monday already?" Where did the weekend go? Did I do anything this weekend? Oh yeah, yesterday was good. But was it enough?
Looking back at my calendar, I had a lot of things going on, but why is it that I have to refer to my calendar? I'm beginning to think that I have to concentrate more on the quality of my activities instead of the quantity.
All I know is that I can't remember what I did Friday and Saturday, the only reason I remember what I did Sunday was because I am still paying for it one way or another, like chlorine poisoning (played horse with the kids), prune skinned (pool water), and just overall fatigue. With all that, I would do it again -- IT WAS A BLAST!!!

Song of the Day: "Feelin' Groovy" by Simon and Garfunkel

Sunday, April 25, 2004

Kids Free Day

Every once in a while, I don't really know how they decide to hold it, Cornerstone parents are given relief in the form of a "Kids Free Day" by the young adults of the church. They, we, I... take the kids out for lunch and then usually to someone's house for swimming, games, more food, etc.
We started off with lunch and since all the kids all want different things carpools are usually determined by who wants to drive with whom, how many will fit in what car, and this car is going to this restaurant. My car was designated the In and Out Burger car.
After a while of "throw the sponge ball around the pool" I got soaked enough that jumping in the pool would actually be dryer... So in I went. The weather was just right for a swim day. The sun was out in force and a breeze kept things tolerable.
I didn't realize how tired I was until I got home. I wanted to do a little work on the computer and catch up on some things... I just kept dozing off. In one of the times I drifted into semi-consciousness the clock said 11:30... ugh!

Song of the Day: "Born For Adventure" by Styx

Saturday, April 24, 2004

Monty Python And The Holy Grail


Song of the Day: "The Lumberjack Song" by Monty Python

Friday, April 23, 2004

What's The Joke?

Here is the punchline, you tell me the joke.

"Well, you can unscrew a light bulb."

Song of the Day: "Mr. Bojangles" by The Nitty Gritty Band

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Oooh, That's Gonna Leave A Mark

Came across this news article, I thought it was hilaring. Let's hear it for the Citizen's Wok Patrol... hahaha.

Song of the Day: "Love Train" by The O'Jays

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

I Woke Up In A Good Mood...

Every morning, I try to get up in a good mood. I wake up and say to myself, "This is gonna be a good day." I get up at a reasonable hour, which gives me a lot of time to get ready for work or whatever else may be planned for the day (at least I try to do so and I've been fairly successful). I take a shower, I get ready for work, I have a decent breakfast... then I go out the door...
Then I have to deal with all the reckless drivers who are rushing out to work because they pushed that snooze button one too many times and so are trying to make up for it by zig zagging, in and out of traffic, cutting people off, taking chances and then laying down on their horns if you don't get out of their way. I usually get out of their way,since I'm in no rush and the way I see it, it's their necks they are sticking out by driving the way they do.
But this morning, even before reaching the freeway, at 3 stops signs there they were. Then on the freeway, 2 more. I only have a 15 minute drive to work! How does that work out statistically? "Hey people! Why don't you just get up earlier?!" Hmmm... I woke up in a good mood today.
Be careful out there people, it doesn't have to be a race.

Song of the Day: "Slow Ride" by Foghat

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Random Sentence

"So God's promise came true, just as the prophet Isaiah had said"

Now you try it,
1. Reach for the the nearest book within reach, any book.
2. Turn to page 18.
3. Find the 14th sentence.
4. Write it in the comments.

Song of the Day: "The First Cut Is the Deepest" by Sheryl Crow

Monday, April 19, 2004

Raising The Bar

Had a conversation with a student during lunch today and it was very refreshing. This student was complaining that many of her classes do not challenge her enough.
I hear too many students complaining about how boring their classes are and that they do not get anything out of them and that General Education classes are such a waste of time. I've sat in on some of these classes, if it weren't for the teacher's voice, you could hear a pin drop. You get out of it what you put in. (Here comes the generalization!) Too many students do not actively participate n too many classes. I hear the "What's the least amount of work can we do to pass this class?" statements too many times.
I told this student that if she does not feel challenged by her classes, then challenge the teacher or the class for that matter by speaking out and asking questions. Work with your teacher and find out different ways to initiate a discussion. Another way is to take such an extreme position on a topic that it stirs other students to want to speak out their opinion (of course you have to be able to back it up or be prepared to say, "Hey you're right, thank you.").
I've sat in too many class that when the teacher asks a question about some point or another, I would almost swear that I can hear crickets. Raise the bar! Do not settle for "cruising" through a whole semester of a class, get the most out of it.

Song of the Day: "The Logical Song" by Supertramp

Sunday, April 18, 2004

Time To Go Home

All packed up and headed back home. This is the part of every vacation that I dislike the most. Not so much the thought of going back to "reality" but repacking everything I brought in the first place and everything else I've accumulated while being here. As long as I've been here, there are just some clothes that I did not wear, even though I wash everything when I get home, I still obsess over packing the dirties with the cleans.
Then there's the loading the van ritual. For some reason, loading the van for the trip back is never as easy as loading the van when the trip started. Then there's the "wiped out" and "I don't wanna go back" factors to deal with.
Berda sat in between Natalie and Traci on the trip back and she was initiated in to the Yangtze River Otter Synchronized Swim team' s Dance Troupe Off-Shoot from China. Whew! If you think that's a mouthful, you should see the jackets we're making, IT"S HUGE! Just so we can fit the name... heheh. So, Berda will be performing with them, look for their performance at a Cornerstone near you!
At the Chevron station we usually go to at Mojave, we saw a bunch of bikers stopping in for some gas. They were a fair sized group and as with most Harleys they were loud. I went up and talked to a few of them and checked out their rides. They even had a tail vehicle in case of breakdowns. It was a nice motorhome type vehicle with a hydraulic lift that opens up like a garage in the back... SWEET!
Anyway, we did the usual stop at the outlet stores at Lancaster. Then finally, at Tony's parents place, where Tony's dad always cooks up a feast for us. This year was no different. It was like another buffet. Thanks Mr. Wong!!!!
So, that's the end of Tahoe 2004.
There were many memorable moments and quite a few "Hilaring Highlights".
- Lori-isms
- Sleepless nights
- Movie night
- Buffet, buffet, buffet and buffet.
- "Let me tell you a story..."
Overall, it was a lot of fun, very crazy and yes, I can't wait to do it all again next year!

Hopefully the DVD will be ready soon!

Song of the Day: "Going Back To Cali" by LL Cool J

Saturday, April 17, 2004

Bad Pastrami

Have you ever gone to a store, a restaurant or any event or venue because of strong recommendations from some one you know? And once going, you were utterly disappointed? And question ever asking that person or persons' opinion ever again?
Today, everyone sort of split up and did their own thing here and there. Some went and gave the slopes a shot, others stayed in and still others went shopping. When dinner time came around (actually everyone eats whenever they are hungry, meal times only apply when the whole group eats together or buffet time - which is when the whole groups eats together). Tonight, we were all pretty buffet-ed out. We were told of a deli here in Tahoe and some of us were sort of excited to eat at a place where there wasn't a seemingly endless supply of food (c'mon, even excess gets boring). Anyway, this place was supposed to have incredible pastrami sandwiches...
What a disappointment! I would usually chalk it up to a bad day if it only happened to me, but the whole group were in agreement - "two thumbs down" So, if you ever find yourself in South Lake Tahoe... Stay away from the deli at the Timberland Lodge plaza. Go to Quizno's instead they can definitely do a better job.

Benny and Lori goes back to Los Angeles today. Too bad they could not stay until Sunday, but it sure was a lot of fun having them up here this year. I hope they can start coming up every year.

Song of the Day: "Daydream Believer" by Shonen Knife

Friday, April 16, 2004

Hilaring Highlights II

Well, it isn't really part II but it is the second entry under that heading... 'nuff said.

- We started a list of Lori-isms the other day. As it turns out others are making it a point to contribute their own list of "isms". According to Berda there are 54 weeks in a year and 4.3 weeks in a month...
- Caitlin Yee sees a bunch of seagulls at the lake and gets excited pointing at them and yelling "Squawky duck, squacky duck!"
- Walking down the main street from dinner, Breanna complains about the wind the same way she complains about her seatbelt... "Stupid wind!"
- Lori-ism of the day: "I'm so smart, I put my chapstick in my pocket."
- A good number of people decide to all "camp out" in the living room tonight. Tonight's mantra: "NO ONE, AND I MEAN NO ONE SLEEPS TONIGHT!"
- Buffet again? but this will make it 4 times this week... Oh ok.
Song of the Day: "And The Beat Goes On" by The Whispers

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Hilaring Highlights

The continuing adventures of this Tahoe trip just keep going and going. Traci, Natalie and Auntie Lori decided that a newsletter of the trips hilarious moments (hence the title: "Hilaring Higlights" hilaring is the new verb form of hilarious) should be chronicled.
I have been video-taping the trip as much as I have been able and have asked everyone to make sure to give me a copy of all their pictures. I am planning of putting together a DVD of the entire trip from start to finish complete with commentaries from everyone from the trip. Now it may sound like too big a production project and it is, but it should be a big hit with the target audience... US!
Today was designated as Shopping Day! We jumped into the "clown car" (since there are 10 - 15 people going in and out of the van, it reminds us of those clown cars in the circus where an endless line of clowns come out of a tiny car) and headed out to the outlets, malls and yes, back to Raley's for more groceries.
The Okajima's stopped by tonight. They were staying at the Timberland. They came by a we all got caught up with everyone. It's funny that we all drove for hours only to bump into people that live less than an hour's drive from home.
Here are a few of today's Hilaring Highlights, the only disclaimer I am putting on this is that since the following is the condensed version, it may not be an accurate representation of what actually happened, it may very well be worse...
- Lori sends Benny a mile away for lotion, while Traci walks ten feet for a ton of them.
- Breanna takes over Uncle Angel's computer, it takes major negotiations to get it back.
- Kathy tries to cook a ton of chicken in an oven made for half a ton.
- Angel adds Benny to his list of mentors, Derrick, Hank and Tony being the others... we all feel sorry for his future wife and kids.
- Angel is given a new nickname by Breanna... Uncle Donuthead.
- Grace was spanked... Tony was not the spanker.
- The Yangtze River Otter Synchronized Swimming Team is formed. Tony appointed coach. First team event synchronized fanning (due to the chicken overcrowding incident, a fanning exercise was necessary to prevent the smoke alarm from going off).

Well, that's it for now. Tomorrow promises to be as fun-filled. We are going to go sledding again. We figure if we can avoid having to go to the hospital, we're in good shape. The Okajima may be joining us so it will be an even bigger crowd.

Song of the Day: "Dangerous Game" by 3 Doors Down

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Sledding Day

Today, we were in search of snow. Being so late in the season our usual sledding location was no longer white, in fact it was totally green. We had to go further north to Rose Mountain inthe northern end of Lake Tahoe. We found a place that was not as steep but we made out just fine. It took me a while to get worked up enough to get out of the van because the wind was blowing so hard and I had lent Berda my ski jacket earlier so I only had a sweat shirt.
By the time I got out there, I had just missed Lori taking Benny out at the bottom of the hill with a sled. If only I had gotten out of the van just 5 minutes earlier I would have had the whole thing.
Then there was Tony telling the kids to ride down the hill sitting on the sled either backwards, lying down, flat on their stomachs or flat on their stomachs facing the other way -- the whole time telling them "Don't worry, you probably won't get hurt!" as he pushes them off.
Tonight was mexican night. I made some Spanish rice, chicken and beef tacos -- salad and refried beans completed the menu. Everyone had more than enough to eat and there was no leftovers. Worked out perfect.

Tonight's movie is The Rundown.

Song of the Day: " Livin' It Up" by Limp Bizkit

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Tahoe Day 2

Not much going on today. Everybody is pretty much trying to get all settled in and unpacked. Unfortunately, there is not a lot of snow. It is very late into the season... in fact it is the last week, they tell us that the resorts will be closing down for the season at the end of this week.
We found out that the Woo's are also up here. We left them a note on their truck last night in case we miss them this morning. Turns out they are early sleepers and late risers, so we didn't miss them at all. They came over around 11:00.
We are eagerly awaiting the arrival of Benny and Lori. They should be here by 4:00 pm... we hope.

The Quons finally arrived. There were only 4 of them to our 13, yet they had more luggage in that truck of theirs than we had in the van. Needless to say Lori and I started on our mutual heckling. I'm glad they were able to make it this year, as with all the people I am starting to get to know better at Cornerstone, I really do enjoy their company. Benny and I have this soul brother thing going and Breanna is no longer afraid of me. Brian is starting to open up to me more and well, Lori? We just try to get on each other's nerve on a good natured, brother-sister sort of way.

One of the highlights of each Tahoe trip is the trip to the grocery store. For some reason, it just turns into a sort of Marx Brothers, Three Stooges, Abbott and Costello thing. This year was no different.

We're all pretty much settled in now and getting into our comfort zones...

Song of the Day: "Even The Nights Are Better" by Air Supply

Monday, April 12, 2004

Let's Hit The Road

We finally left for Tahoe this morning. Had a little problem with the van though, usually the 15-passenger van we got would fit... huh... 15 passengers, but only if they did not have any luggage. Before we picked up the Wongz, we were already one seat short....
We were finally able to load everything up and got on the road. It didn't take long before the goofiness started. I guess once the realization that we were on the road and leaving the "hum-drums" behind set off the goofy switch on high. Then again with this group it doesn't really take much to flip that switch.
We stopped at the usual stops, Mojave for gas, Schat's for lunch, Bishop for more gas and a few others for driver switches. We got to Tahoe at around 6:00 pm. After unloading the van the first order of business was... FOOD! It didn't take a lot to decide where to eat, the kids were unanimously calling for the buffet at Ceasar's.
Tomorrow will be sort of a take it easy and settle in day, so nothing is really planned.
Maybe tonight, I'll finally be able to get some sleep...

Song of the Day: "The Road I'm On" by 3 Doors Down

Sunday, April 11, 2004

Not Again!

The pageant last night was really nice. I'm glad Hank and Berda invited me to come along. Turns out we knew one of the contestants, oh by the way it was the Miss Asia USA Cultural Beauty Pageant. Angeline Wu was a member of the LA China Town Court, 2nd princess. I got to meet her last year at the Asian American Journalists Association's Trivia Bowl. Anyway, Angeling ended up winning the Miss Asia USA crown. It was very exciting and I thought she totally deserved it. As soon as I get the photos I'll post them on here.
But because of the previous evening's "festivities" and in my lack of sleep delirious state I "thought" I was told that our Easter's Sunrise Service was at 5 am this morning. So this makes it the second year in a row that I did not get any sleep the night before Easter.
It was very exciting for Cornerstone. This was going to be our first Sunday service at our NEW PLACE! It was a very good service and the place was filled. There are still a few things that need to be fixed, tweaked and ironed out, but that's ok seeing as it was our first.
Well... Easter Lunner (if breakfast and lunch is brunch, what is lunch and dinner? Lunner?) is done. The family for the most part has gone home...
Back to packing.... *groan*

Song of the Day: "Running Back To You" by Commissioned

Saturday, April 10, 2004


Getting ready for the annual "Tahoe" trip with the Lai's. I don't remember packing being such a monumental task. Granted, we'll be gone for a week, but c'mon! What to bring what not to bring... oh wait gotta bring that , never mind...
Hank called there's a pageant thing going on tonight in glendale and they have an extra ticket. Like I'm going to pass that up? Okay... packing is going to wait for a bit.

Song of the Day: "Celebrate" by Lionel Richie

Friday, April 09, 2004

As Often As We Can

There is no shortage of wrongs that need to be right. In every hour of every day there are more than enough "wrongs" that can... need to be "right"-ed. When you hear a bunch of kids make fun of a person because they were different - when should we step in? When you see a trivial argument growing - when should you step in? When you witness a form of bullying whether between children or adults - When should we Step in? When you see a frown that needs to be transformed into a smile - When should we step in?

As often as we can...

Song ofthe Day: "Smile At You" by Fleetwood Mac

Thursday, April 08, 2004

Peanut Butter And Jelly Brick Toast With a Side of BUTT

Are people just devoid of courtesy these days or just oblivious?
I was at Guppy's earlier and there was a group at the next table. I gathered that they were high schoolers on spring break.
Apparently, they were a popular bunch as they knew a number of other kids coming in and I don't have a problem with that. I don't even mind when they burst out in screams and squeals (only the girls... at least I don't think the guys were squealing). The thing was as more of their friends were arriving and waiting to be seated they gathered around their table and "spilled" over around mine. They were standing awfully close, how close you ask? Well, I was close enough to be able to read the inseam sizes of their jeans. I gave them what I consider enough time to say their hi's and hello's, but after a while I had to insist that they take their "assets" away.
I asked them to give me some space. Their reaction (by "their", read: girls) was first surprise, then outrage. Yes! Outrage. One GIRL, the loudest of the group with an over-inflated opinion of herself, even asked me, "what's your problem?" As if escalating the situation into a confrontation would elevate her status with her group.
I pointed out that it was not what I ordered. That kind of threw her off. Not getting an answer, I said it again, "it wasn't what I ordered." Recovering, she asked what I was talking about. I stood up backed up towards one of the more mature guys on the table and said that I did not order a peanut butter and jelly brick toast with a side of butt...

Song of the Day: "Shut 'Em Down" by Busta Rhymes

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

Take Off My Belt?!

I got pulled over a month ago by the Downey Police Department. Apparently, I had allowed my registration to lapse and I was driving around with expired tags.

At first I was relieved that I was not pulled over for a moving violation (i.e. speeding, incomplete stop, driving on the wrong side, reckless driving, hit and run, destruction of public property, driving on the sidewalk... not that I was doing any of those things... yeah). Then I realized that I am looking at the very least, a couple of days standing in line. *groan*

Since that evening, I've stood in line at the local DMV office and was told that I have to get my new tags through the mail since I had let it lapse (I didn't even know I "let" anything lapse... it's not like I gave it permission or anything like that).

After a two weeks, I still haven't gotten the tags. I know they got the money because my bank tells me that the check I issued and mailed out had cleared and the due date on the ticket was coming up. So, back to DMV only to be told that I "should" be getting it any time soon. It still doesn't help me when I go to the courthouse to clear this ticket.

I came out of there with one of those temporary permits you tape to the rear window of your car. Hoping that this would be enough to satisfy the court or the police department.

Next stop, Downey Police Department to have the ticket signed out by an officer. I "un-taped" the temporary permit to take in with me. The Clerk behind the window was very helpful and got the day sergeant to sign off on the ticket.

This morning, armed with a signed ticket and an early start (at least I thought it was an early start, 8:00 am) I headed for the Downey Courthouse. Parking was fairly painless though there were a lot of people insisting on camping out for parking spaces closer to the door. What are they thinking? Do they really think that at this time of the morning, just as the courthouse opened, there will be people getting ready to leave? Uh, the owner of those cars will be here for a while people!
In front of the building there is a LINE, not a line, but a LINE! Just to get in the building. People are going through a metal detector. I know this will be the first of many lines once I get through so I'm preparing myself mentally. I take out my wallet, keys, coins and anything else that might set off the metal detector. I even took out my Medical ID card in case the defibrillator in my chest set the metal detector off. I'm ready, I'm calm and in the proper mindset. I get to the line and the officer asks me to take off my belt...... Take off my belt?!!!! sheeeeesh!

Song of the Day: "The Long And Winding Road" by The Beatles

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

Now I'm On Vacation

  1. The college is off for Spring Break since Friday, so work is done.

  2. Last night was the end of one class and the next one isn't for another couple of weeks.

  3. Taught my ESL class tonight and we're off for a couple of weeks.

  4. and I made arrangements for my being away next week...

Now I'm on vacation...

Song of the Day: "Not Coming Home" by Maroon 5

Monday, April 05, 2004

I Guessed Wrong

I was speculating on the April Fool's jokes a few days ago and I had a hard time finding any. I thought I spotted one in the Google offering a free email service with a gigabyte of storage. I was so sure that this was an April Foll's gag that I was ready to bet the house on it. I am sooooo glad I didn't read here. Apparently, they are serious about it. OK, folks if you want your Super Google Email account you better try to sign up for them now.
I only take comfort that I was not the only one.

Song of the Day: "Should've Listened" by Nickelback

Sunday, April 04, 2004

How Did This Happen?

So I got home from watching the movie last night (check time of yesterday's post) and started to do some little busy work before going to sleep.
Oh, during the movie, I got a call and a message from the Cornerstone's worship team asking (less than 24 hour notice... again) me to play for today's service. I am so glad I put my cel phone on silent mode.

I wanted to do a little work on a few on-going projects before going to sleep. I have been trying to organize a a mountain of MP3 files, catch up on some email and... and... and...

By the time I decided to quit it was already 4:00 am which because of the the time change was actually 5:00 am.
7:00 am - Started on attacking a mountain of laundry threatening to avalanche into the hallway.
7:30 am - Started a pot of coffee and breakfast. Went out to get the Sunday paper.
9:00 am - Started getting ready for church.
10:00 am - Set up (For the last time, woohoo! Will be in the new place next week!)
2:20 pm - I get a call from a stranger that my sister just fainted in his store. -- She is fine by the way.
3:30 pm - Got home.
4:30 pm - Fed the dog.
5:00 pm - Waiting for the sisters to take the dad out for his birthday.
6:00 pm - Family dinner, prime rib for everyone!
8:00 pm - Taking a breather, getting ready for Monday...

Looking back at the day and taking stock of what needs to be done the coming week, I came to this thought...

This day start without the previous one ending... HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?

Song of the Day: "Movin' On" by Good Charlotte

Saturday, April 03, 2004

Walking Tall (The Rock Version)

Anyone who knows me, knows that I do not go "out" to watch a lot of movies. But for some reason this year I've already doubled my yearly allotment (last year = 5 movies). My sister talked me into going to see the newest version of Walking Tall. I guess I am dating myself when I say that I saw and remember the 1973 version. I can't really say I "enjoyed" the original but made a lasting impression. I remember cheering for Sheriff Buford (1973) and getting real angry at the bad guys, then again I was only, yikes! 9 years old at the time. IT REALLY made an impression!
Anyway, this latest version of the movie was not as brutal as the original, though it had enough "implied" brutality (it has a PG-13 rating after all). It was a lot of fun. Johnny Knoxville made a great Barney Fife sort of deputy. The Rock was... well, the Rock.

Song of the Day: "Fire On The Mountain" by Marshall Tucker Band

Friday, April 02, 2004

Toys, Where Are The Toys?

I went out in search of toys today. I wanted to find something I can waste a little time on. I bought a bunch of "z-cards" from Wizards of the Coast. They are closing their stores and their inventory is going for 50 - 70% off. I figure some of the kids from church would get a kick out of them.
I didn't find any for myself though. The pickings were pretty slim by the time I got there. Most of the stuff left are the higher end stuff like expensive chess sets, a whole bunch of jigsaw puzzles, novelty knick-knacks, books and cheesy board games.
Then I went to Fry's to look for other toys and still no luck.

Song of the Day: "If I Had It All" by The Dave Matthews Band

Thursday, April 01, 2004

Pity, Fear And Rage

Silent rage. I pray for people who are capable of such acts. I pray that they find the peace they need. They must have so much hate in them. I pray that such vehemence never crosses my path, I would be afraid of what would happen if I did something to stop it or ashamed if I didn't.

I like to think I am a very open minded person. But when I go out with family and friends, I find myself looking around checking out the crowd and the surroundings, then asking myself the "what if... " question. Not that I would know what to look for other than the obvious "person with a gun" or a big sign over a bomb that says "bomb".

Before I can go on with the rest of the day, I have to get rid of this anger. I won't be any good to anyone fuming like this. I want to scream, I want to yell. I want to ask those who did this "why?" I want to walk up to the people who did this and yell out "what did those people do to you that called for such an act?" I want to run through that town and scream at the top of my lungs, "How can you let people do this?!" Who am I kidding? I'll admit it, in a way... I want revenge.

Song of the Day: "We Didn't Start The Fire" by Billy Joel